of being perahsantan

today i kept checking my phone
thinking that it was my phone that's beeping
tapi tak ada ye, tak ada langsung
it was her phone

are u clare too?

i'm now reading the time traveler's wife

pretending that i'm clare, which i think is true

i am clare in such a way sebab selalu kena tinggal

good thing he didn't leave or disappear in a sudden mode

henry: "i worry that you will get tired of putting up with my undependableness and you will leave me"

clare: "i won't ever leave you. even though you're always leaving me"

sedih

i don't like to watch the movies, they always spoil the story

remember p.s i love u? urghhh the movie was disappointing

you prefer books or wait for the movie?

aiduladha

 

seronok sangat balik kali ni

sama je macam raya sebelum ni tapi syok semacam :)

cuma bosan dengan soalan kawin tu

aidiladha di rumah emak

raya ni kami kurang satu ahli kugiran, tapi takpe raya tetap raya!

disebabkan raya haji ni almost semua balik kecuali sorang kakak, unlike aidilfitri yang separuh anak-anak takde, ami&ayo jadi excited & masak macam-macam untuk kami bantai esok.

selamat berhari raya :)

wow~*

drools~*

new year with new status

i'm going back to school!!!

i'll sit for the open entry assessment next week for losing the matriculation's transcript. ingatkan senang je nak apply for second degree, sebab dah ada degree sebelum ni. rupanya panjang cerita mintak transkrip bagai. yang hilang tu jugak la yang dia mintak pun kan.

class will start in january. so untuk 3 tahun, duduk la diam-diam kat sini.

tak boleh la pegi berlibur lama-lama.

macam mana plan nak ikut kamu kerja ye encik? :(

respect

play nice

Just because your blog is yours doesn't mean you can have free reign to write anything you want without repercussions. Remember, the content on your blog is available for the world to see. Just as a reporter's words or a person's verbal words can be considered libel or slander, so can the words you use on your blog. Avoid legal entanglement by writing with a global audience in mind. You never know who might stumble upon your blog.

one of 3 Top Blogging Rules, an article by Susan Gunelius, About.com guide

i read a comment in one blog which i think shouldn't even be there or come out from a friend's mouth (in this case, keyboard). searched for blogging ethics and found what i pasted above. just because it's your blog or this is blogosphere where people write whatever they feel, doesn't mean you can just hit the buttons without thinking of the effects. you may change people's perception of the blog owner with your ridiculous comment.

note for myself and just sharing with you, kadang-kadang kita pun maybe tak sedar somehow we hurt people.. sigh~* or i already hurt someone with this entry?

when is that day coming?

i'm waiting for him to come home so we can set a date for the photoshoot. but with his job, i can't promise any date with faiq on when we can do it.

be home soon, jom la pegi amek gamba.

i miss you.

ghaz is my new found love

his name is ghaz, short for ghazali
i'm so in love now, thanks to my bestie
few more days to meet him for the first time
sangat la tak sabar nak jumpa kamu

so mr lover, sila berjaga-jaga
kamu ada persaingan sekarang
or should i add, new responsibility too? :)


happy happy happy
bali bali bali bali bali
bonus bonus bonus

faraheda oh faraheda

timaseh la fara
tak pasal-pasal sebab kau
aku pun melayan nur kesah di saat-saat nak habis ni
timaseh la ye?

bali? gumbira :)
how i wish i can be there again

girls day out part ii

me love :)

 

what's your speed?

  i'm currently using the free maxis broadband service until march '10

the thing is, the speed is only 236.8kbps. not hsdpa, not umts, but edge.

it this what i'm supposed to get for using the free service?

or is it my modem? *now waiting to try on another modem*

 

i'm a kid who surf slower, see less, learn less and do less

on the other hand, my second day with her was another challenge. hari ni terserlah kebenaran that i am not suitable to be a teacher. mungkin dengan anak-anak je lah kot, sebab diriku ini garang. :) dua hari ni jugak la kitorang sangat rajin ke pantry makan apple, so that we can chat without any interruptions. and also dua hari yang sangat mengantok.

hey kamu, cepat la sampai 23 november

cepat pulang, kita layan nasik padang jom!

hari keluar budak perempuan ialah girls day out

 

 

bukan ke patutnya farah datang sini dengan azdi?

datang ok babe dengan cintamu next time

bawak jumpa rusa-rusa rakus tu & arnab con lagi

best okayyy!

hey!

oleh sebab saya sukekan orang yang kerjanya buat dia jarang ada dekat dengan saya
maka saya kena sabarkan aje lah
kalau putar jarum jam tu boleh cepatkan masa
memang saya putar je jarum jam tu tak henti-henti..!

cepat la balik :(

hey nape dah approve comment tapi takde ape keluar?

 nani betul2, semoga semua mengikut plan :)
selamat bergembira dengan jat ye?

it's raining most of the time

pernah mandi hujan?

veronica

dah sampai pun kat langkawi :)

dalam flight tadi, tiba-tiba jadi rajin pulak nak menyembang dengan orang sebelah. selalu kalau naik flight/train/bus sorang-sorang saya suka buat muka garang/tension so that tade perlu nak sembang ngan sapa-sapa. belagak kan? isk isk ape nak jadi..

sembang dalam flight tu melarat kepada lunch soon after we touched down, and spent almost 2 hours bersembang, bergelak ketawa. i like her, so warm. macam mak-mak.

we split at the taxi counter. on the way to hotel, pakcik cab tanya "itu bos ke?" kureng, nape bukan aku yang bos?? ciss!!

veronica told me bout her neighborhood which happens to be my most favorite place to settle down. when i told her that i love her area, she insisted that i give her a call and she'll take me around. siap bagitau row rumah anak dia ada lagi yang available. ok lah, xmas nanti we can pay her a visit. she called me asha, pun boleh la..

kesimpulannya, jangan sombong or suka buat hal sendiri or buat muka garang.

p/s: datang kali ni, buat saya rindu sangat.

pilihkan

sila pilih

yang baik atau yang tak baik

harus la yang baik kan

sila pilih

yang baik atau yang baik

haa tatau nak jawap kan

i'm wondering why my sis said she's berduka right now

statement dia macam sangat vague

misteri-misteri gitu, tak suka betul

but i can't ask her kan? eh ke patut tanya?

hopefully everything's fine

comments enabled for now
*sure dia rasa nak hempuk2, jap ok jap tak ok*

balance is 0.0

tomorrow at this hour i'll be on my way to lcct

free accommodation kat holiday villa

kebetulan tiket flight pun incredibly cheap for a last minute purchase

rm65 pegi, rm80 balik

there goes my annual leave

hari ni dapat parcel dari marlissa

so kind of her to include something in the package

semoga bertambah murah lagi rezeki u pasni

berbaloi-baloi beli tudung dari marlissa tau

on the other hand, dah mula dah mengira hari

tak sabar nak tunggu december ni :)

banyak occasion penting & special

orang penting pun ada jugak bulan depan ni

to tell or not to tell

i wish i can tell how i feel inside

so you know, and you won't have to ask anymore

i wish if you ever want to ask, you'll ask me

not other people especially those who knew nothing of me

i wish i can tell what is going on

so you won't judge me, really

i wish you would understand

but only a few can do that

those who happen to be in the same shoes

but i can't tell

i just can't tell or explain to you

so feel free to judge

i don't have to run right? :)
my mood swings in split seconds
i miss him, i miss us

2-minute

a 2-minute phone call

one simple question, "how's your day so far?"

means the world to me

***

by the way, just finished reading sophie kinsella's twenties girl 

i decided to stop waiting for the cheaper version and just buy the hard cover, lagipun kan azam tahun 2009 ni nak fully utilize the rm1000 tax relief. rasenya tu je azam tahun ni yang confirm jadi kenyataan.

owh the book? once i read it, i just couldn't stop

worth every single penny

i couldn't stop myself from imagining chris noth (a.k.a mr big from sex and the city) as ed harrison the u.s guy who stole sadie's attention, then stole lara's heart
the way kinsella wrote the story, as if it's so real 

(it's either so real or daku memang kuat berangan)

chris noth in sex and the city
i only like him as mr. big and none other than mr.big saja

you can read more about twenties girl here

fara & cikgu azdi

cinta sangat~*

 

 queen of the day

 

 banzai!

it was really hot that day, rezeki diorang

cikgu azdi was one the palapes member back in ukm

they call him tuan, berpangkat la tu kot

so during their wedding, the whole troop came to do the sword barrel

cool kan?

wonder kid, look at her finger

kami yang penat gile

 azdi & fara yang malu-malu kucing

 

they got married after going through a lot of things together

semoga hubungan ini diberkati Allah & kekal ke akhir hayat

mohon dijauhkan apa-apa gangguan daripada perkahwinan ini

amin

he will come to me~*

dah lame gila tak dengar lagu ni

hanson was a famous band back in secondary school (97-01) time

meaningful ok lagu ni :)

i never stop loving this song
sangat la sayang kamu love~*

cinta hati

we finally managed to squeeze our time to meet up for dinner yesterday

 

 all of us made it there kecuali pelakon drama kitorang yang busy berlatih untuk malam media & khayra. umi tak sempat fetch her from her granma's house to join us. kesian anje, asal makan petang-petang camni sure anje tak dapat ikut..

 bekas buruh kanak-kanak di bulan puasa

 

arif yang behave bila duduk sebelah umi

 

 keadaan sebelum dia mula lapar

for a minute, tak sangka budak-budak ni dah besar especially our arif. rasa macam baru lagi pegi visit umi masa arif kena jaundice kat pantai puteri and jemur budak tu bawah matahari pagi.

have a great weekend :)

i'm flying tomorrow~*

lookin for adam kling's 'get together tonight' lyrics

sangat comel lagu tu~*

difficulties

my version of how to survive office politics:

#1 don't reveal too much information about yourself to your colleague. what you said may be used against you

#2 don't care too much about what people think or said about you. they're just people that you won't meet after 5pm. not a big part in your life. if u really can count on them, itu lain cerita.

#3 if you don't like someone, don't let your emotion gets u. if u need to communicate on work-related matters, be professional. other than that, shut up

#4 don't talk bad about a colleague to another. what you said may be used against you. but i told p about my colleagues, dia tak kenal sorang pun.

#5 sometimes, play dumb is the best solution

#6 say thank you to people who helped you. it really means a lot without you realizing it

#7 be genuinely nice to people. don't ever fake it. if you can't be nice to certain people, stay away

#8 if your colleague is forgetful, make records of what you gave him/her, make him/her sign. you'll be safe & covered.

of course, i didn't follow all. sometimes i do let my emotions kick in. what i believe/holding to may be wrong to you. but i'm just sharing okay :)

his way to survive office politics:

#1: Live at peace with others
The easiest way to avoid problems with politics is to get along with people. I’m not saying you need to hug everyone and sing songs, and I’m not saying you have to be a pushover for everyone. You can be pleasant and professional, while at the same time being assertive when necessary. If you have a concern, focus only on the issue, not on the person. If you have to refuse a request, explain why and try to come up with alternative solutions.
Living at peace with others also means being careful about choosing sides during office power struggles. Aligning yourself with one faction or the other will prevent you from working effectively with people from the “other” side, thereby hampering your productivity and thus your performance. It’s even worse if “your” faction loses out. Instead, try to focus on your tasks, dealing with people in either faction on the basis of the tasks alone, and avoid talk on the political issue that separates the groups.

#2: Don’t talk out of school

Three can keep a secret if two of them are dead.
– Benjamin Franklin
Does your organization have issues? Have people told you things in confidence? Then keep those matters to yourself. Talking to outsiders about issues within your organization makes all of you look bad to that outsider. Furthermore, your boss or your boss’s boss will not appreciate that behavior. People will find out that you spoke about what they told you, and they’ll lose confidence in you and respect for you.

#3: Be helpful

We all have responsibilities and objectives, and those things should receive priority. Nonetheless, if it doesn’t take too much time, being helpful to others can reap benefits for you. Does someone need a ride in the direction you live? Did your co-worker leave headlights on in the parking lot? Is someone having trouble building an Excel macro? If you can help that person, especially if you can do so without taking too much of your time, you benefit yourself as well as the other person. By doing these things, you’re building political capital and loyalty. In doing so, you reduce the chances that you will be the victim of political intrigue.

#4: Stay away from gossip

I never repeat gossip, so listen carefully.
— Old joke
Nothing destroys the dynamics of an office more than gossip. Stay away from it, because nothing good comes from it. Just be sure you avoid the “holier than thou” attitude of lecturing your co-workers on the evils of gossip. You’ll make them lose face, and they’ll resent you. Instead, try subtly changing the subject. For example, suppose the group is talking about Jane’s problems with her child, and of course Jane is absent from the group. Do some free association and try to come up with some topic that’s related to Jane or her child, but won’t involve gossip. Then, make a comment about that topic.
For instance, suppose you know that Jane’s child is involved in a sports league. Mention this fact, thereby linking the child and the league. Then, shift the conversation so that you’re now talking about the league rather than Jane’s child. You could ask when schedules will be published, or if they need parent volunteers. If you do it right, no one will even notice that you’ve moved them away from the gossip.

#5: Stay out of those talk-down-the-boss sessions

Suppose your co-workers start complaining about the boss. If you join in, it makes you look disloyal to the boss. If you don’t, it looks awkward in the group. What can you do? As with the situation of gossip, try changing the subject by linking the boss to another topic, then talking about that topic instead. Or you could simply respond to your co-workers with a smile and a tongue-in-cheek, “Come on, aren’t we exaggerating? [name of boss] really isn’t THAT bad.” Be careful, though, because it could be taken as an admission by you that the boss is bad.

#6: Be a straight arrow

The best way to keep out of trouble politically is to be seen as someone who doesn’t play office politics — in other words, a straight arrow. Do what you say you’re going to do, alert people to problems, and admit your mistakes. Others will respect you, even if they don’t always agree with you. More important, you have a lower chance of being a victim of politics.

#7: Address the “politics” issue openly when appropriate

Many times, when I do organizational assessments, I sense anxiety on the part of client staff. To address this anxiety, I tell people I interview that I’m not there to get people fired. I’m there to help the organization function better. It might not completely allay their fears and suspicions, but at least I’ve brought up the issue and addressed it.
Think about doing the same thing if you believe politics is an underlying theme at your company. Tell people you’re not interested in scoring political points but only in getting the job done. It might not work, but unless you bring the matter up, there’s no chance at all that they will believe you. So if a co-worker is unavailable, and you have to act on that person’s behalf, consider saying to that person, “I had to act because of your absence. I wasn’t trying to go behind your back and I wasn’t trying to show you up.”

#8: Document things

Nothing saves a job or career more than having a written record. If you believe a matter will come back to haunt you, make sure you keep a record of the matter, either via e-mail or document. Documentation is also an effective way to highlight of your own accomplishments, which can help you when your performance evaluation is conducted.

#9: Set incentives to foster teamwork

If you’re a manager or senior executive, take a close look at your incentives. Are you unwittingly setting up your staff to work against each other? Do your metrics address only individual departments, or do they also address how departments could benefit the larger organization?
For example, suppose the hardware department of Sears reduced all its prices by half. If you measured only profitability of the department, you would conclude that it is performing horribly. However, that measurement would neglect to account for increased volume in all other departments because of the hardware department.
If you reward employees in a department based only on how well that department does, you may inadvertently cause destructive competition among departments. Each one will be competing against every other one, and all the departments could end up in a worse position. To minimize this possibility, give employees incentives based not only on department results but on organization results as well. That way, employees from different departments have more motivation to work together and less motivation to engage in destructive politics.

#10: Set an example for your staff

People in an organization look to leadership to see how to act. Do you want your staff to refrain from negative politics? Do you want to see collaboration and teamwork instead of petty rivalries, jealousy, and back-stabbing? Act the way you want your staff to act, and they will follow you.
source: tech republic, 10 ways to survive office politics by calvin sun (june '09)

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$1 we finally watched papadom, berminggu lambat dari orang lain. nice & toucing. one normal thing, bila benda tu ada tak tau-tau nak appreciate, nak kena tunggu dah mati/takda baru nak start hargai apa yang dia ada, sampai jadi terlebih-lebih. same goes to me.

$2 i bought a new shades tapi cuma boleh pakai dalam rumah.

$3 still tak jumpa baju putih yang tepat, masa nak tu memang tak ada. nanti bila dah settle baru la melambak-lambak muncul depan mata. haishh.. faiq oo faiq, bila free?

$4 crossed one from hundreds of our to buy items

$5 i have one small project of my own, bought a glue gun but it lasted for less than a minute. going to tukul today to buy a better one.

$6 i can't wait for november to end, for december to come, for us to be in sabah, for my family outing, and for so many things