I am now counting days

As at now, 9.13pm hari Selasa, ada 3 hari lagi nak cecah suku abad
Rabu, Khamis and comes May 1
For my birthday, i got Angpow from my colleagues..
Bukan la ribu riban tapi cukup la buat shopping kecil kecilan

Bleh beli kasut, or baju or pants since i am now one size smaller and everything seemed to hang loose on me...

Bleh beli barang kecil-kecilan for my house :)
At lease nampak la duit tu guna untuk beli ape kan...

Or beli buku, memandangkan azam tahun ni ielah nak beli magazine & buku banyak-banyak sampai rm1000-00 so akan ade cukai terlebih bayar..

Or, guna untuk duit poket pegi jalan...
Maksudnye enjoy n makan n makan n makan..
Kan dah kurus..

Paling penting, I want something for my birthday..
A wish from you..
Boleh?
Jangan lupe tau

HmmmMmm

Give me more loving than I've ever had Make me feel it better when I'm feeling sad Tell me I'm special even when I know I'm not Make it feel good when it hurts so bad Barely get mad I'm so glad I found you I love being around you You make it easy

It's as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4 There's only ONE thing (one) TWO do (two) THREE words (three) FOUR you... (four) (I love you) I love you There's only ONE way (one) TWO say (two) Those THREE words (three) And that's what I'll do... (four) (I love you) I love you

Give me more loving from the very start Piece me back together when I fall apart Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends Make it feel good when it hurts so bad The best that I've had And I'm so glad I found you I love being around you You make it easy

It's as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4 There's only ONE thing (one) TWO do (two) THREE words (three) FOUR you... (four) (I love you) I love you There's only ONE way (one) TWO say (two) Those THREE words (three) And that's what I'll do... (four) (I love you) I love you

Tibe2, ade orang suruh dengar lagu ni.. Lalalalala

How to forget?

Via Creature Comforts

I hate it when I told a friend what I feel about something, and orang tu kata saya ni imagine je, or terasa hati, or should just put everything behind me and let go of it. BUT dia tau, and felt the same way I did about that particular thing. Cuma tak mau mengaku yang die rasa macam tu. Macam mane saya tau? Sebab dia kata, ok keadaan memang la macam tu but you have to put it behind and go on with your life.

Saya geram betul sebab dia tau rasa tu macam mana, sebab benda tu pernah je jadi kat dia. And sebab benda tu jadi kat dia la dia jadi ape dia jadi sekarang ni. And boleh rasa nak bagitau saya apa yang die bagitau saya malam tadi. Penat saya explain, tapi dia tak habis-habis suruh saya lupekan je, and itu suma adelah assumption saje semata-mata..

If forgetting is so easy, why can't you do it earlier?

Reading Material

Movie ni dah released ada kat cinema with Drew Barrymore, Jennifer Aniston, Ben Affleck, Scarlet Johanson tapi saye just beli buku, sebab rasa buku selalunye lagi best dari film..
I'm attracted to one part of the book (up to second page as baru baca sampai situ je).

If a (sane) guy really likes you, there ain't nothing that's going to get in his way.

Belum habis baca, so belum totally faham lagi..
But I believe it's true, I mean it applies in our everything la..
Nak seribu daya, taknak seribu dalih.
So, kamu tu 1000 dalih or daya?

A simple man indeed...

Read MM's page yesterday about this and was led to this. The more I read, the more I felt stupid and cheated but I continued as I haven't got enough shots of stupidity this week. I laughed (u all saye tatau la) reading bout him flying first class and the problems occurred if he downgraded himself, not to mention Balqis's stories.

Ini le ex-MB saye..
Ini zaman dulu, sekarang die dah handsome ok..

Release tension

After all the things that happened these few weeks, I decided that I need a therapy. So i bought one of that, 3 of those and 2 of those..
I chose retail therapy.
When I saw the barang-barangs, rase happy gile~*
Ngggeeee

Untitled

Benci..
Benci dari A sampai Z...

I'm in love with Skype~*

Kawan tu, kan sepatutnya ada dengan kita waktu susah senang. Yang paling jujur, sincere dan transparent. Yang akan bagitau yang paling betul walaupun yang itu paling menyakitkan atau jeorpadize friendship kamu.

Kalau kawan kamu kata jangan, maksudnya memang jangan. (Unless kamu tau die memang jenis busuk hati..) Sebab kawan kamu tu jujur nak kamu tau jangan buat macam tu.

Kalau kawan kamu kata benchi, maknanye memang dia benchi. Sebab bukan senang kita nak bagitau orang yang kita sayang, kita benci apa yang die suka.

Kalau kawan kamu kata move on, it means MOVE ON.. Sebab kawan kamu tu dah bosan/tak larat/kesian kat kamu/muak tengok kamu sedih, marah and start fresh and the cycle goes on and on. Muak tu maksudnye bukan la dia benci kamu tapi perhaps dia dah muak dengan episod yang sama berpusing-pusing depan dia.

Tapi, macam mana pun marah and bencinya dia dengar cerita kamu, sebab dia tu kawan kamu yang close, dia memang akan duduk jugak dengan kamu and dengar lagi dan lagi.. And marah kamu, cried with you and frustrated bila kamu pilih untuk stay dalam problem tu. And dengar lagi..

C'mon la, you're not the only one with problems. There're those who suffer from bigger problems, and memang totally stucked and really can't do anything about it. If you can move on, (which in your case you can) kamu move on lah. A lot more to expect, a lot more to gain in life rather than to sit, question yourself on why it happened to you and wait.. It's a matter of choice, you chosed to be there and you can choose to walk out from there.

Hari ni, saya pilih untuk tak rindu dengan kronik~*
Esok saya tak pilih lg..

Blabbing

Did you watch anugerah bintang popular last night?
Siape menang or kalah tu i don't really care, tapi sangat la suke tengok the closing performance by Faizal Tahir =)

Sakitnya aku
Membenci kamu
Sakit lagi mencintai mu
Dan aku pergi
Tapi kembali
Benci aku mencintai diri mu
Ku benci... Kamu
Ku cinta... Kamu

Betul kan, love sometime hurts. But we keep coming for more.
We learn from it, and quarrel some more and learn again.. =)

He looked nice with his new image, rambut just nice..
The shades, adoi smartnye kamu FT..
And he really rocks.. I always like him & his songs..

I did a lot of things last weekend, like really buat instead of just planning...
Objektif tercapai:

I'm still in my 'rumahku harus cantik' obsession...
Finished painting the standing mirror, tv rack, pintu lemari..
I must say, the best look of all is the tv rack..
Timaseh kepada yang tolong..
Sekarang baru tau, bukan senang nak cat..!
Lain gile, sangat cantik and it looked expensive with it's new look..

Parasol

I got this for free at Parasolmag

It took me 3 trials before I finally got my copy of Parasol magazine via A print a Day. Problemnye ielah sama ada internet connection yang slow gile, or tetibe disconnect, or tetibe terstop...

I like this magazine because it's free.
Ade macam-macam, gamba cantek..
Ade some DIY tutorials..
Decorating ideas..
More on handmade stuffs as most of the bloggers here are supporting handmade stuffs..

There's interviews with the bloggers (who mostly have their own blogshop)

And some creative ideas & photos

Cantik~*
Suke giler...

Done for this week

My audit's done for this plant & this week at 7.20pm today..
No NCR, no OFI..
Sumanya okay..
Gumbira rasa hati~*

Ini ielah audit session, before mine... Orang yang ade dalam bilik tu tak la sebanyak botol air atas meja, agaknye sorang 2 botol air kot...

Those files on the chair are mine~*
Bawak benda lain, request benda lain...

While waiting for to be audited, AR promoted his Samsung Omnia to me.. Been doing it since last 2 weeks but i'm just not interested in touch screen phone. Knowing myself, i'll wreck it the moment i got it... But i have to say, after touching here and there, cool jugak la phone dia..

Takpe, simpan duit and beli phone tu perhaps in August? Wuhuhu...

Audit mode

This is what I've been doing since morning till 1.20pm today, and will be doing the same thing for the next few hours as I still have 2 more departments which I have to update the job descriptions.. Tukar orang, tukar job scope, tukar job title, tukar department, pecah division, tukar reporting manager and ade ribu riban folder...

I have audit tomorrow, thursday, next monday, tuesday..
And again in May...

Same thing again, same question..
Kalau dulu mesti kelam kabut bila time audit & sakit perot mase hari audit.
Tapi lama-lama dah jadi immune..

Got an e-mail today, I'll get some stuff this week..
Semoga sabar le tunggu dapat barang-barang tu suma~*

Current mood: Decorating

I'm currently in the mood of decorating my house, after 8 months moving in.
Finally bought a settee, paint to paint the furniture in my rooms and now thinking of cheap, affordable way to decorate my living room..

Which explained why all of sudden i went busy reading on DIY blogs so I can find some ideas (cheap & affordable) so I can do it while I'm still in the mood... Kalau lambat, I may loose it and suma pun tersadai kat dalam store.

I found that I can buy some cheap photo frames and turn 'em into wall decor (with photos) or use some of the frames as the material and frame 'em.

Hopefully this mood will hang around for a loonnggGGg time.

My Most Tiring Weekend

She reached here at 2.oo pm i think..
And i'm so tired now...
Nak tido....

Please

Stay with me when I'm at my worst behavior
Stick with me when I'm at my most humiliating moments
Stand by me when I need your support the most
Laugh with me even at my lousiest jokes
Correct me when I'm wrong
Fill me in when I'm at my emptiest moments

Ignore my bitching when I'm mad over something

I don't know anyone else who can do it better than you

I am the meanest person on earth

I feel that I am the meanest person on earth when I said those mean words to someone... Not just yesterday but all these years and it's bothering me until this very minute.

Sometimes it crossed my mind that because of what I said and how I reacted to things, people might drift away from me. Because of me being a paranoid, people might get bored and leave. Because I questioned too much, you might get tired of answering and realize that this is not what you want in your life, being questioned all the time and leave.

And so it fades...
Because you're bored & tired of what I did...

People are terrible to the people they love sometimes. They're mean. It just makes you a person who made a mistake. ::Izzie Stevens-Greys Anatomy::